On Not Writing Anything At All

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Judging mother goat says you "should" do more.
It's been some time since I've been able to sit down and write anything - well, at least anything that I'm proud of.

I've been writing emails, writing to-do lists, researching things to write, and generally hiding under my covers whenever someone mentions writing for pleasure or even for this blog.

Whenever someone asks me - the self-identified writer - "what have you been working on lately?" I begin to freeze up. There's nothing wrong with this question, but it does create an internal jab that I should be working on the next big masterpiece. Perhaps a novel, perhaps a book of poetry, perhaps an application that will send me to the greatest heights of academic superiority... but alas, as I mentioned on Monday, the word "should" does little more than shame me into thinking I'm not doing enough.

And there's nothing more unproductive than that.

I think that goes for any sort of situation in which you find yourself feeling uninspired or apathetic or any of those other adjectives that express that you're generally in a rut. When it's for other people - your professor, your friend, your parents - it can be hard enough. But when you can't even produce material for yourself, well then you might as well hang up your tools and call yourself finished... at least, that's what the monsters in your head are saying.

When I lack inspiration like this, I try to put down the barest minimum. Hit all the basics and feel no guilt. No should. If all you can get through is the final few pages of reading or the next appointment, then that's all that needs to happen. Sometimes it's important to work harder than anyone else, yes, but it is equally important to give yourself the self-nourishment to not get burnt out.

And you know what else? It's never going to be perfect. I am (slowly) learning that lesson myself.

Denying the Word 'Should'

Monday, April 9, 2012

This week, I entreat you to reject the word 'should.'

I remember in my high school, there was a giant orange poster that had a quote from Yoda on it that read: "There is no try, there is only do or do not." I want to take that message and apply it to 'should,' in any of it's forms.

Women's History Month Closing Speech

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Today I'm posting the audio recorded by my dear friend Simone of my Women's History Month closing speech - it's not the best recording quality since it was done with a cell phone, but hopefully it still gets the message across. In it, I talk a little about dancing and a lot about getting up and trying again. Enjoy!

Taking "Busy" to a Whole New Level

April is ridiculous.

It's only the third day and I'm already feeling the heat. In the past month, I've gained so much: I've been working on two different research projects, facilitating workshops and speaking at events, having an amazing social life, and finishing up my junior year strong. The upside is that I've been working on projects and goals that I really enjoy and am happy to be doing - the downside is that I have to prioritize and sometimes aspects of my life ultimately get cut. But, rather than lament the fact that I'm not able to be online as much, I'd rather showcase some of the great work that I've been doing. So, here's a little snippet of the last month and how I'll be moving into the next one: